And now..

..we are here - over in germany - home at last. Been here since 6 weeks and enjoying being here. Trying to get over the difficult weeks in scotland. My marriage nearly broke down and its hard to repair the pain which was caused on both sides. Not sure if we will make it but we are trying.. Have been staying away from the computer for a long periode as it didn't felt right being on it with my world in pieces. Slowly trying to rebuilt confedence in myself again. Taking one step at a time...

Today was a day best to forget about - me and the other half didn't saw eye to eye today and some time of the day was spend with just arguing with each other.


Better to remember nice times like N arriving nearly 6 years ago. Tommorrow is his birthday - 6 years of age. How times passes by...

N just a couple of minutes old. Sadly no home birth or even vaginal birth as he came to world by c-section and the first person to hold him was his dad as mummy was totally knocked out.

Rest in Peace

Poor darling Max died today.

Phil's beloved pooch of nearly 18 years of age. We will miss you...

And there he goes again...

Merry Christmas and a Happy New year to you all....

I know its late but better late than never. We had a very nice and quiet christmas and as a big surprise for the children Phil came home on New Years Eve. Since then we have had a very slow moving life. Due to the weather our car is still down at Phil's parents but we don't mind. If we go to church or the shop we take the sleigh with us so the children can sit down if they get tiered. It's weird to think my parents brought me the sleigh for my first birthday all this years ago. Will it last till my children have their children? We will see.

Unfortunatly by tommorrow we are back to just the three of us again as Phil has to go back to his work for another 3 months. It was lovely to have him back with us for the days and it has showed us how we want to live our life and what we are working towards in the long run. But for now we have to go back being seperate again but I know it will not be forever.

I really enoyed our slow life for the last week or so. I am thriving for having a simple life so decluttering is one big must this year as we have far to much stuff and I am feeling at times how I can't breathe underneath all the clutter around me. More about the changes I am hoping to achive in another post as its getting late and the little princess is still up while her brother snozzes happily upstairs. Night night for now...

Feeling sad

It's been a while again since I last wrote here but life is rather upside down. After 5 weeks of us all being on and off ill seems like we have escape the all the bugs that go around and kept catching us. Phil has been gone now for 8 - 9 weeks; I think as I stopped counting after a few weeks, and its starting to get to me running the house by myself and looking after everybodys needs from children to four legged friends. All I want is a hug and somebody telling me everything will be alright. Its hard when you are trying to be strong and supporting your husband wherever he is and his damn job. Yes I need a HUG!!!

Thoughts

Today I am gratefull for the fact that my two children still have a mother who will kiss them good night and cuddle them whenever they need it.

My thoughts are with the two little children who recently lost their mother. The two girls are very young - one just turned 4 and the other not even 2 years old.

Food

After my fantastic food experience a couple of weeks ago at the wonderfull TM Camp I am really trying to make an affort to cook more healthy. I still can taste the freshness of all the organic fresh homemade food in my mouth. Gosh I never felt so healthy for a long time. It has me inspirited to think more about our food and what we put in our body.

So I splashed out for a new book - Feeding the whole family: Cooking with whole foods. I haven't tried any of receipes yet as my attention got taken away by my dogs diet. After years of feeding them tin food I started to give them dry food last year. So far so good but I have a little sausage dog who is one of most fussy eaters in the world. So most days he would just turn his nose on the dry food and walk back into his bed. Well things had to change. So, I have embarked onto the journey of the BARF diet for dogs. Now I am grating a carrot for them every morning to mix in with their salad, cucumber and apple mix. Yes you are reading right my dogs are also eating veg now and everything is organic as well. Well mixed in with their raw meat I think they have a pretty good diet like they should have if they would live wild. Even the other half commented on how much they liked their new food and how quick it was gone!